~~Reflecting on Year One~~
Grief does terrible things to you. The first year was hell. In addition to the emotional and mental aspects of grief, it also affected me a lot physically. One of the issues was eating. I hardly had an appetite. In fact, I could barely get anything down. When I went grocery shopping, nothing looked appealing to me and just looking at food, even things I used to love, often made me feel nauseated.
My appetite slowly began to improve a bit. And sometimes I actually cooked, mostly just when my daughter or son came for dinner. But oftentimes, when I tried to season the dish, I couldn’t tell if it tasted good or what spices might be missing. I seriously couldn’t tell if it was good or not. It was as if my taste buds were gone. It was very strange.
Of course I’m not a doctor and don’t know for sure, but I assume this was caused by grief. Or maybe I’m just weird.
The good news is that eventually my sense of taste returned, and so did my appetite. I wonder if anyone else had that problem…
Yes! I can relate to everything you said. It’s been 4 years since my husband passed and I have found myself losing weight. I used to cook and bake all the time but, now I have no desire to do it. I tried eating a pizza which is my good to food and even that goes to waste. My Adult daughter gets upset with me for not eating but, she does not understand.
Thanks for sharing. I think it’s really hard for anyone to understand how much grief can affect you, even physically too. I hope your appetite improves with time and that you’ll maybe find new foods that you’ll enjoy. But I get it, it’s just so hard to get anything down when nothing really tastes good anymore.
Hugs,
Daisy