What I miss and need right now is a place to rest my head. I’m so tired. So frustrated. So alone. And there’s nobody to comfort me, nobody who’s shoulder I can cry on. Nobody to just hold me for a while.
It’s not that life is horrible right now. There are things that are exhausting and frustrating, but overall, I can’t complain. And yet, I’ve been so discontent lately because something is missing.
I haven’t been in a relationship in quite a while now. My on and off attempts at online dating have failed miserably so far. So why don’t I just give up? I suppose it’s human nature to seek love and a partner with whom you can share your life. At least for me, finding love again is apparently so important that I am willing to subject myself to the scary, weird world of online dating over and over. To me, the worst part isn’t even the weirdos and the guys looking for a night of fun. It’s the crushed hope that hurts the most. Talking to someone for a few days and thinking “maybe he’s the one” and then he turns out to be terrible. Or he just ghosts you. So in a way, I wish I’d be okay just being by myself and not having to go through disappointment after disappointment. But I miss having someone. I miss snuggling on the couch in the evening, having someone to talk to, sharing the day’s stories.
I miss hugging that special someone and feeling safe, warm, cozy and at home. Being in his arms and knowing that everything is going to be alright.
I do not know you, but this post could have been written by me. I have not been adventurous enough to date. But, like you I yearn for that special someone.
Thank you for your comment. Dating after loss is so incredibly hard. I wish you the best of luck should you decide to embark on dating adventures!