Confessions of a Bad Widow

I have a confession to make. It’s really quite embarrassing and terrible. I’m a bad widow. My husband’s online obituary page on tributes.com didn’t even have a photo of him—until now. Nearly 10 years later, I finally added one. (A special thanks to Emily at tributes.com for helping me with…

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Learning To Be Solo

Losing your spouse changes your life in so many ways. The grief and pain are so horrific, it’s unimaginable and incomprehensible unless you’ve experienced it yourself. It’s hell, I can’t describe it any other way. And then, when you finally feel a bit better and want to start living life…

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Don’t Wait, Live Life & Seize the Day!

It seems that I’m always waiting for something in my life. Waiting for a situation to improve, waiting for better circumstances. Waiting for someone to do what I asked them to, or perhaps waiting for a specific event, or for the time to be just right for something. I have…

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We Are Not Alone in Our Grief

I wish I didn’t know, feel and understand the kind of pain other grievers are going through. I wish I couldn’t see it in their eyes, hear it in their voice. But I remember…and I know what it’s like, especially during the first couple of years after loss. It’s hell…

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Why Did You Abandon Me?

Sometimes I just want to scream, “Why did you abandon me?” Yes, I’m angry. This used to happen a lot in the first couple of years after my husband passed away. I would get so frustrated and angry when I had a hard time with something and couldn’t handle things….

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Excerpts from My Grief Diary

When I think back to the first couple of years after my husband’s death, I ask myself, “How did I ever make it through that?” Now, nearly ten years later, I’m amazed at how far I’ve come. I’m actually okay most of the time these days. I am immensely grateful…

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