Widow Brain and Feelings of Guilt

~~Reflecting on Year One~~ My husband’s death catapulted me into a different world. A world of darkness, heartache, and great uncertainty. We had been married for 22 years and were a team that ran like a well-oiled machine. I’m not saying that our marriage was perfect but, for the most…

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New Life and New Identity as a Widow

Being a widow sucks in all kinds of ways. There’s dealing with constant tears, sadness, depression, new financial realities, loneliness, and the list goes on and on. I soon found out that losing my husband also meant losing a major part of my identity. Who was I now in this…

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Grief Triggers Causing a Setback Again

Whoa! Grief triggers are sending me backwards once again! Today didn’t start out well. Some old issues connected with my husband’s death came up again. And boy, it knocked me down and sent me back to what feels like square one. Just like that, I was tossed back into the…

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The Wedding Ring Dilemma

At some point after your spouse passes away, you wonder what to do about your wedding ring. Should you keep wearing it? Should you take it off? At first, I couldn’t bear even the thought of taking off my wedding band, anniversary ring and engagement ring. But after a while,…

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Going Back to Work

~~Reflecting on Year One~~ First there was numbness, then the deep, raw crippling pain of grief, sadness and despair. But life doesn’t stop for you as you grieve. Eventually I had to go to work again. It was dreadful yet good for me at the same time. First of all,…

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Issues With Eating and Sense of Taste

~~Reflecting on Year One~~ Grief does terrible things to you. The first year was hell. In addition to the emotional and mental aspects of grief, it also affected me a lot physically. One of the issues was eating. I hardly had an appetite. In fact, I could barely get anything…

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