Permission to Feel Happy Again

Happiness after loss. Is it possible? To be honest, during my first year of widowhood, and most of my second year, I was in such a dark place that happiness seemed to be gone forever. And even almost nine years later, I still have trouble sometimes just enjoying life the…

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Just Hold Me for a While

What I miss and need right now is a place to rest my head. I’m so tired. So frustrated. So alone. And there’s nobody to comfort me, nobody who’s shoulder I can cry on. Nobody to just hold me for a while. It’s not that life is horrible right now….

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The Importance of Self-Care

This post is a bit different because it deals with something that affects everybody, not just those who have lost someone. And while this topic isn’t really grief or loss-related, I think it’s especially important for grievers to practice self-care. (Without feeling selfish or guilty about it!) It’s easy to…

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Visiting the Cemetery

I don’t go to the cemetery as much as I used to. I moved to a different town and it’s a bit more out of the way for me now. But some days I feel the urge to go there, visit, reflect, and talk to my dead husband. Yes, I’m…

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Finding Peace in Gardening

Gardening, or just being outside in nature, has helped me tremendously over the years. There’s something about digging in the dirt, seeing things grow, that is calming to me. Especially if I’m having a bad day, if I’m stressed or in a widow funk, I try to go outside and…

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If My Husband Was Still Alive…

I often wonder what life would be like now if my husband was still alive. I go through different scenarios in my mind. Would we still live in the same house? Would he still be working at the same company? Would we have went on a nice vacation somewhere, just…

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