Visiting the Cemetery

I don’t go to the cemetery as much as I used to. I moved to a different town and it’s a bit more out of the way for me now. But some days I feel the urge to go there, visit, reflect, and talk to my dead husband. Yes, I’m…

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Finding Peace in Gardening

Gardening, or just being outside in nature, has helped me tremendously over the years. There’s something about digging in the dirt, seeing things grow, that is calming to me. Especially if I’m having a bad day, if I’m stressed or in a widow funk, I try to go outside and…

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If My Husband Was Still Alive…

I often wonder what life would be like now if my husband was still alive. I go through different scenarios in my mind. Would we still live in the same house? Would he still be working at the same company? Would we have went on a nice vacation somewhere, just…

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Grieving the Loss of My Dad

My dad passed away a few days ago. I’m still trying to process this, I don’t think the news has completely sunk in yet. He passed away after a long struggle to recover from a stroke. Sadly I won’t be able to attend his funeral because it’s impossible for me…

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COVID-19 and Grief

I cannot imagine how the current COVID-19 situation must affect those in their deepest throes of grief. Even if you don’t get sick, the isolation, fear and uncertainty alone can really get to you. I’ve been widowed for eight years now. How would a pandemic situation like this have affected…

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Loneliness, Sadness and Frustration Today

Things have been so busy and crazy around here lately that I haven’t had much of a chance to just sit down and do nothing for a while. Now that I finally have some time to myself, I almost wish that I was busy from morning until night again. Too…

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